Wish it was better...

So, unfortunately things have not gone as according to plan...but do they ever? Isn't that the story of my life??? Whatever!

So, here's the DL (translation: down low or update...yes I am channeling my inner thug...or something like that). My hours got cut back at work which has had numerous widespread devestating effects.

Here's how EVERYTHING has been effected...
Hours cut back = less pay
Less pay = no buying a house OR paying off bills any time soon
Less pay = crunch time for trying to get school loans deffered
Less pay = getting my housing assistance back (I was so proud of myself for finally getting off "welfare")
Hours getting cut back is a direct result of low census, which has been low (really, really, really low) for a while
Low census for extended period of time and hours being cut back indeffintiely = possible permanent cut back to part time = more expensive insurance (gee that makes sense, pay me less and charge me more for insurance)
Low census for extended period of time = ????? What will they do with us? Help us? Shut us down? ????? Who knows?? We sure don't!!!
Possibly losing my job or extended time with my hours being cut back = start looking for a new job
VERY FEW (like 5) social work jobs in the entire state of Idaho, locally there is one in Boise and one in Caldwell
Very few jobs here = looking out of this area
Looking out of this area = moving (expensive and time consuming = financially and emotionally draining)
Moving out of this area = Jaylene moving in with stranger, leaving my family (as crazy as they are I do love them), Riley freaking out about not seeing her dad (which she doesn't anyways) or her friends or the rest of our family...poor kid...
VERY stressed = still smoking and no weight loss

Do these people understand what cutting back hours or cutting jobs do to families?? No, of course they don't because the big wigs who make these decisions don't know a thing about us and don't care to know a thing about us. After all, it's a lot easier cutting jobs for social worker 1 than it is to cut hours for single parent who busted her butt for 5 years to provide a decent life for her child and the one family member who can provide a decent life for her 7 year old cousin who is in foster care who has experienced abuse beyond words...

I have one word for you...make that two...cheap bastards

On the bright side...my boss got a job at an agency expanding and swears she will hire me once their census is up...but can I wait that long? No!
So, what do I do?? I apply for jobs across the country - No kidding!! LOL! I applied in New York, California, Georgia, New Mexico, Indiana, etc...you name it I applied there. I even applied for a job in Twin Falls.

So, here's the news, which I am ambivalent about. I applied for a job in Twin Falls and I had a phone interview Friday which went great and I am going there tomorrow to meet the director. I also applied for a job in Boise which I have an interview for Monday. Wish me luck!

What's a girl to do?? There are so many things running through my head. The short of the long of it is, I do NOT want to go back on welfare less than a year after I graduated. I don't want to because I can't afford it AND because of my pride. Neither my wallet nor my ego can take a hit like that. I have to have a job; that's all there is to it. Even if it means us leaving Boise. :(

I have been praying to God about all of this. What am I praying for? I'm not praying for one job or the other...I'm praying God will lead me down the right path and take care of us. I don't know what the right decision is; only He does.